After ending my first day with a lovely healthy meal and a glass or few of rose wine watching a DVD, I awoke on Day 2 in good spirits. It would be my first full day at the house.
I also had no idea what the time was. It didn’t matter. That in itself was such a calming feeling. It didn’t matter what the time was. Takes some getting used to.
Day 2 must have been a very relaxed day as I couldn’t even be bothered to write in my journal that day! I am recalling the events from memory and brief notes written on Day 3.
Much as I loved the view it was being spoilt for me as the place was so remote the windows hadn’t been cleaned for a long time. There were cobwebs everywhere. So I spent an hour or two cleaning all the windows, sweeping away leaves and killing off bluebottles that had hatched since someone had last been in. A little unpleasant but the end result made me happy, and I knew my wife would have hated it the way it was, so I felt I was making the place more welcoming for her.
I had a stroll and walked up what was a much bigger hill than I thought! It seemed a never-ending steep climb but the views from the top were worth it. I could have just captured them in my mind but I had the thought to take my phone with me to take some photos too. I enjoy photography and the area was so naturally pretty it was too good to pass up. So I took a few snaps. Then the bug started to bite. Hey, I thought , I am so high up here I might get a mobile reception! Curious I switched the phone off Airplane mode and indeed there was a very faint reception, 1-2 bars at most. I could have tweeted a photo. If I did though I would be breaking my own data embargo as I would be quickly sucked into reading tweets. It gave me a pleasant feeling of control to switch the phone back to Airplane mode and return it to my pocket. Besides, it was far to0 windy and cold to sit reading tweets!
Returning to base camp ( joking ), I was a bit chilly so I lit a fire with the logs and kindling provided to warm the place through and ran myself a bath. A bloody big, deep bath. With smelly bubble bath and incense. Glass of wine+Book=Bliss.
Prune-like I emerged having finished reading a book called ‘The Secret’. You have probably seen it on bookshelves. I was warned by the person who loaned it to me it might seem a bit weird and ‘hippy’. Indeed I did have to fight against my normal self screaming “Oh come on!” at some sections. However, I was here trying to reshape my life exactly because of the way I had always thought. It wouldn’t hurt to challenge myself to take a new approach. Basically the concept is this. There is enough of everything in the world and if you want and believe strongly that something will come to you it will. This could be an object or even something more abstract like love. I could see how this could work. If you behave negatively and angry you end up surrounded by people like that and vice versa. Just being in these different circles alone is enough to have a dramatic effect on your life and the things and events that come to us. We love feedback as humans and if something great happens we will want to replicate those conditions to make it occur again. Put simply think positive – positive things will happen and so the opposite is true. These things may not occur immediately. The book contains lots of quotations claiming all the greatest thinkers of mankind knew this.
I also made a head start on a book called F*** It – the ultimate spiritual way by John C. Parkin. Immediately I knew this book was written for me. It had come into my life at just the right time. Hold on I hear you saying, this is a book called F*** It, how can it change your life? It just sounds crass and silly. Childish maybe. To that I say good, f*** it!
I love this book so much I bought a copy immediately on returning home. I need it to be there. I need it to sit on my shelf and remind me how free I can be if I want it and how free my thinking was that week. If you are looking to change your life, feel more content, reduce stress levels and get on better with those around you this is the book I would recommend. In fact unless you are already living in a zen state of calm everyday there is something in this book for you.
So I read a lot on Day 2 and bombarded my mind with new ways of thinking. I settled down in front of the fire that night feeling more calm. Confident that things could and would change. Then I watched Neo kick ass in the Matrix Revolutions, read a graphic novel ( comics for adult folks. Not porn ) and slept soundly. Tomorrow was a new day.
For once in a long time I was looking forwards to it.
To be continued….